I think that before and for so long I would say things like, "Oh, it doesn't matter" or "This is just the way it has to be" or "This is what they want - it is just easier" or "It's okay it isn't that important."
I lost my voice. I lost what it was that I really wanted. And I lost the faith and belief that all was possible.
I remember one time I walked into a small bookstore and said to the clerk, "I need something (pause), can you help me find meaning?" How odd and sad I must have looked standing there. I remember the tears filling my eyes and the intense feelings of helplessness.
"Every time I've done something that doesn't feel right, it's ended up not being right." ~ Mario Cuomo
Kelly McIntyre M.Sc.